A little "peace" of my mind...

Lately, I've noticed that on the days that I think I have the most reason to feel distraught & upset actually turn out to be the best/better days of all....have you ever felt that way??

I think that God knows (well of course he does) that those are the days he needs to carry us...because our hearts and spirits are the most fragile...He likes for us to experience the feeling of strength on our preconceived "lowest" days during the bitter times. Then, on days that our hearts are less feeble he lets us go enough to feel pain & sorrow; because even though it hurts He has prepared our hearts & knows we will withstand the "course" of our own emotions.

It's a crazy thought I know-- but I've just found it so bizarre that I've walked so strongly on days that painful things happen....maybe that's why we feel so crazy on good days when we just randomly break down and someone asks us what's wrong and the honest answer is "I don't know." We are finally letting out the emotion that was put off until a "better time" ....and it feels so good right?

I was literally on the train listening to a pretty sweet playlist if I might say so myself-- when all of a sudden I couldn't stop smiling (it's ok, I live in NY...so no one thought I was a weirdo) and I had this epiphany...and the only thing I have to say to that is...GOD IS SO GOOD. Live by blind faith-- God will do the rest. Just Believe :)

Divine Appointments

...what is my ultimate purpose?

Lately, I have had one thought & one strong burning desire-- make a difference. Whether that be in one single person's life or in hundreds...I want to abundantly impact some one's life. In the past few months I have felt more personal growth and change than I have throughout my entire life (I think it's safe to say I'm finally growing up.) Maybe the amount of growth & change is God's way of preparing me to fulfill my desire to make a difference. Is it weird that living in NYC (where religion is scarce) I feel the closest to God...? He's so obvious to me here, but I feel like the city is just blind. In a place filled with so many people it's actually pretty easy to feel alone, but I rest confidently knowing that I'm right where I'm supposed to be. I don't know the answers to the who, what, when, or where questions in life, so I'm just going to treat each interaction I have as a divine appointment.

Reflecting back on life....even as recent as last week, last month, or last year...I can pick out the stepping stones God has laid out for me. I feel like I used to try to make everything work according to "Sharra's plan" or what I thought I wanted. I can't even begin to explain how much weight has been lifted off of my shoulders just learning to take life one day at a time, go with the flow, follow faith, and treat each day as a new beginning. I don't know where life is headed, but I know it's somewhere grand. I refuse to settle for less than God has planned-- so each day I will embrace new people, new places, & new ideas...because each new day holds the possibility of changing some one's world.

"Make each day different, make each day count"

^ *Taken on a morning walk to Columbia University* ^